Where Are You, Christmas?

 

Maybe it has been the weather.  Maybe it has been a deluge of bad luck, beginning with my heat going on the day before Thanksgiving, and ending with the need to replace all the plumbing under my two bathrooms.  Oh, and did I mention that I’m looking at a root canal and a bridge replacement in my very expensive mouth?  But for whatever reason, I have had a hard time finding Christmas this year.

The Christmas Tree Lighting Festival in my town was great, in spite of a rainy evening, and I always feel a jolt of warmth when we light the first Advent candle at church, but I had a nagging feeling that something was a little off.  Even the Christmas parade in my small town, as fun as it was, didn’t quite inspire me to begin decorating my house for the holiday.  I opened the closet door a couple of times and was overwhelmed at the thought of pulling all those boxes out.  Never mind putting up a tree.  

Decorating for Christmas is an interesting thing.  Some people say, “Why bother with it if you are not having people over?  If you are the only one that will see it, it’s a waste of time.”  Yesterday at lunch that very topic came up.  My friend Margaretta expressed the best rebuttal.  “That’s not why you decorate.  You decorate because of the memories in the decorations – all the ornaments on the tree have a story.”  I said I felt the same, but sometimes I wonder if I could get the same effect by simply taking the ornaments out of the boxes and replacing them without putting them on the tree!  Somehow, I don’t think it would work the same. 

During that same lunch, something amazing happened.  The waitress came to the table and said our lunch was paid for.  “Who?” we all asked, looking around.  “I don’t know,” she reported.  On further investigation, we discovered that a young couple from out of town had paid the tab for everyone in the restaurant, a not insignificant sum of money for the busy after-church lunch crowd.  The owner said she had never seen them in there before.  Angels among us, perhaps?  In a world where kindness seems to be the exception rather than the rule, it reinforces hope for our future.  It made me feel like that closet was not quite as big a job as I had been thinking.  But it was a cold, rainy afternoon and the dogs decided that the fireside was the place to be.  I was chilled and the fire was warm and I had a lot on my mind.  I decided the dogs had the right idea.

That same night, with no progress toward my Christmas decorating, I made my annual journey to a little country church for their annual Christmas Singing.  It was a cold, damp night for the drive, but as I turned off the highway toward my destination I noticed, as I always do, the way the lights of that little church shone a welcome.  As many times as I have visited Little Lot Methodist Church, I always have a moment in the dark wondering if I missed the road.  But the lights that spill through the trees on the wooded hillside reassure me I am in the right place. 

I love my own church, and I love our sister “big church” in my hometown.  But, for some reason, this old church holds a special place – it’s a “thin place,” a place where the link to heaven seems especially close.  I am not sure how many years I have been making trips to Little Lot for special events – Christmas, Good Friday, singings, funerals – but I always get a warm feeling when I walk through those doors.  The people there, those physically present and those in the unseen world that linger in that space, make me feel at home.  It helps that one of my very best friends is the driving force at the church, playing piano and wrangling their dwindling congregation to serve the community more than many other churches twice their size. 

Last night was no exception.  The crowd was small – sickness had decimated the already tiny congregation this year.  But the spirit was large, as always.  David assigned me a reading, as he always does.  And he always picks out the most perfect things for me to read!  This year it was a sweet piece about puppies, which called up a reminder of my blessed summer of puppies.  I don’t know where he finds these things, but I’m glad he is willing to share them with me.

The program doesn’t change much over the years, and that is a good thing.  Several singers were absent and last minutes changes were needed.  But music filled the church, the stained-glass windows illuminated the room, excited children gathered around a microphone to sing Jingle Bells and somewhere between the verses of Silver Bells and Silent Night, Christmas touched my heart again.  The simple, familiar story, read to the background of the most familiar of all carols told me again why we celebrate.

Afterwards, there was fellowship, conversation and laughter, accompanied, as Methodist custom dictates, by food and drink.  I ate one final little pimento cheese sandwich and drove home, replete with food and with the Christmas spirit.  I think I can tackle that closet now.